Sooo people..tell me what you think of my idea of a tattoo for my graduation? I'm going to get it on  the back of my neck...my dad won't like it though(if he's still alive)....Oh and by the way, the tattoo is the japanese kanji symbol for "wolf". I plan on getting more tribal/kanji tattoos of my own design depending on how well I can stand this one...

ps..please no one tell me about the pain because don't forget, I cut myself...I'm great with pain.

WHAT THE FUCK TO I HAVE TO DO TO EARN YOUR GODDAMN TRUST?!!!!

I make straight A's, have a job, pay $100 bucks a month for a fucking bill, buy my own food and everything else I need, am a scholar with excellent acedemic records and am labeled as one of the top students. WHAT THE HELL DO I HAVE TO DO?! All this and I have less freedom than every kid I know and they are all basicly losers(not talking about my friends) and yet I still can't have even a bit of freedom before you decide you have to be in fucking control.

I said I was going to the variety show at the middle school(two streets from my house) and said it was from 8 pm and I didn't know when it would be over. I just said it would probably be late. YOU AGREED AND SAID IT WAS ALL FINE. Then I get home at 10:30pm and you are staring at me like you want to be the hell out of me and when I ask what, YOU HAVE THE FUCKING GULL TO ASK ME WHERE THE FUCK I'VE BEEN!! YOU GODDAMN FUCKING HYPOCRYTICAL CRIPPLE SON OF A BITCH!!!!!!! I can't even be trusted to not lie to you! After you asked where I was and I told you at the middle school, you have to accuse me of blatantly lying by if I was there the whole time. Even after I showed you the goddamn paper, you just looked at me and told me to my face that you didn't believe that I was there for that whole time. WHY THE FUCK CAN'T YOU JUST BELIEVE ME???? WHAT ELSE DO I HAVE TO PROVE TO YOU?!!!

I'm fucking sick of it. I do everything I possibly can to be the fucking best and you always say how proud you are and use me as an example of how pathetic my brother's kids are, but then you turn around and take away every bit of freedom I have. You say as long as you are alive, that I'm going to follow your rules and do what you say. WELL HERE'S AN INSIGHT: YOU DON'T KNOW A FUCKING THING ABOUT ME!!!! YOU DON'T HAVE A SINGLE GODDAMN RIGHT TO TELL ME WHAT THE FUCK I SHOULD BE DOING!!! You tell me I should trust you with my life and do what you say, well where's the FUCKING TRUST FOR ME? huh????

Not once do you bother to ask about my friends, or try to talk to me about what I feel. You don't even know my friends names! you don't know about my boyfriend or my girlfriend. You don't know about all the problems I've been having with my english teacher, EVEN THOUGH I TOLD YOU TO YOUR FACE that I didn't get along with her, and I told you about all my problems with her and what do you do? YOU JUST SAY "OH, TARA, SHE'S A PROFESSIONAL THAT'S JUST HOW THEY ARE, YOU JUST GOTTA DEAL WITH IT AND MOVE ON"

What the fuck am I supposed to think when my FRIEND'S FAMILY knows me better than you. You don't try to listen to me and talk things out. You just jump to your own fucking conclusion and say that's the right thing.

JUST FUCKING DIE ALREADY. YOU HAVE NO PLACE ANYMORE! YOU ARE JUST A FUCKING CRIPPLE WHO WANTS TO THINK THAT HE HAS AN ACTUAL LIFE BY FUCKING WITH EVERYONE ELSES. I know you care, but all that is, is a goddamn emotion. it's not worth anything because you don't show it. Your just too focused with your own pain all the time to realize that it's not your life you are messing with.